As I’m sitting here typing this out, 3^rd cup of mocha flavored ice Java beside me (mmm… coffee), I can’t get one thing off of my mind… you want to know what it is? I bet you DO. Yes… I KNOW you do. You want to know soooooooo bad, don’t you? You are dying to know… wait * doh*… I said "dying." Kinda gave it away… but you didn’t KNOW I gave it away. … confused yet? Cause I just confused myself… and am even now confusing myself further. Are you still following me? Dang… you’re good. Yes… you, you’re good! O ya… back to the topic. So… lately (last night… today), I’ve been thinking a lot about … Death. Yes, it is sad and pessimistic and possibly sadistic, but it’s just the simple truth. Last night AND tonight I watched "Final Destination." Greeeeaaaatttt movie. And you knot what it’s about? Death. Plain and simple. About death. You know what today’s chapel was about? Ya you do. And even last night after I watched the movie, I had this crazy nightmare that woke me up at 3 or 4am about ready to break down, because I did and still remember every single stupid detail of it. Ususally I like nightmares… a LOT, but this one… no. Totally ruined my night. If you want to know what it was, ask, I’d be happy to tell you, but I won’t ramble on and depress myself further by talking about it now. So ya… you can see why I’ve thought about death a lot lately. 10 days ago marked 2 years since the death of a lady I used to know, my dad employed and was close to my family. When I went to kentucky for those 7 or 8 days a month or so ago, I visited her grave for the first time. I remember the epitaph, written by her best friend…. Tis a sad poem.

So ya… you can imagine that I’m in a sad mood right now. Chapel today was sad, yes, but like Nathan (cough emotionless cough) said, "he didn’t even seem sad." Or "He doesn’t cry every day." Yes… Nathan said those coldhearted things. Sheesh… he’s so thoughtless. Lol… jk Nathan.. your still cool… but only because you played piano for 6 years… and no one even knew about it! That’s crazy… all those days when it could have been YOU on the piano. No offense to Tim, Emily (yes.. Emily) and Bri, who totally rock down the house when they bring it, but ya.. you still should have played SOME Nathan.

Whoa…. WAY off topic there. YAY! The third glass of the day is kicking in. O ya. Dang, I cant even hardly remember what I was talking about. Seriously, I felt so out of it today. Like when I was trying to explain to Retta and Kelsie what to do when you set up a page in Journalism.. and I couldn’t talk, so I just made wild hand guestures and pointed at the buttons. Ya.

O ya… DEATH (dun Dun DUN). Ya… its such a deep topic, its hard to explain on a simple, low blog entry such as this. But here’s a question that maybe you would be so kind as to comment and give your opinion… . Do you think your death is pre-determined? Part of a design? Can you CHEAT deaths design? Ya… such hard questions. O well, I know all of your IQ’s ARE in fact high enough to give an intelligent answer, so go for it if u feel so called.

Randomness here… . There’s this little poster in the music room that Tim pointed out to me yesterday. I had never noticed it before, but I look at it every time I’m in there now. Its so awesome! Okay… it says…

Ya… its so true. EMILY .. ya, Flute + piano and you won’t play in front of us! BUT… she’s coming out of her shell, because she DID play piano for us today J And NATHAN who doesn’t play enough piano. (My Immortal doesn’t count anymore.) And I havent even heard Amanda play. Not sure if Hope plays? Retta? Hit me if I forgot you and you play. I want to hear Conner play too, but havent yet. Ahh… so much music, so little time.

That reminds me of me and Tims mini convo about how much time we waste SLEEPING. Yup. But then he pointed out to me that if we never slept, twice as many people would die everyday, which would kinda suck. SO ya… I can’t even begin to imagine Gods perfect plan, but it makes sense doesn’t it? That we have so many time zones… so that the level of violence in the world is sort of spaced out, if you will. Get it? Wow… its so awesome. Ya. Incredible.

Okay…. I kinda forgot what else I was going to say, but since I’ve already wrote a ton… I should quit. Seriously, my entries are so long and boring. Like… I’ve NEVER had a short entry. Ever. Nathan gets 212389 comments on his one word entry, lets see how many comments I get on a 959 word entry!

-Dustin